This post is extremely hard for me. Mainly, bc I usually don't like to share my personal info and feelings with complete strangers. I don't want people to think I want sympathy from them or to fell sorry for me. I have read SO MANY blogs of women that are going through the same thing. It helps me to remember to stay strong and have faith in God when I read all of their encouraging words and read about their strength. I know God does things in his time and that I just need to have faith in him.
**Warning, this is a long story**
Since I have shared this for the first time I thought I might share a little more about my situation. (I have been contemplating sharing my story for a while now. So I am stepping out of my comfort zone.) My husband and I have been together for 6 years. We got engaged in Nov. of 07 and decided then that after we got married in June we would start trying to have a baby. (Big, BIG step for him, I have ALWAYS wanted to have kids.) So needless to say I was so excited. I had been having problems with my periods for about 3 years. Every year I would go to my family doctor at least twice a year and tell him my symptoms and he could never find out what was causing my problems. He just told me not to worry that it was normal. Well, in May of 08 I decided to go to a doctor out of town bc I knew something was wrong. I mean as soon as I told him some of my symptoms he just had that LOOK, like he knew exactly what it was. So long story short, I ended up having several cysts removed from my uterus. The doctor had said, "No wonder you hurt so bad, one was almost as large as your uterus!" And on top of that he did a laproscoptomy and discovered I had endometriosis. My insurance doesn't cover the very expensive treatment for it, so the doctor said becoming pregnant would make the endo dormant. He didn't act or say that I couldn't get pregnant so that gave me a little comfort. But nothing yet. So there you go, that's my story. If you made it though thanks for reading.
6 comments:
Even though I knew that- it still hurts my heart for you. I am so sorry about AF, that breaks my heart. =(
Kim, I will pray for you. Just remember it IS all in God's time. It took Jacob and I 2 yrs and 2 miscarriages to get pregnant with Jordan. We started trying when we lived in LR. We found out we were expecting 1 week AFTER moving back home. Then, lo and behold, shortly-i mean SHORTLY, after Jordan's 1st birthday, we found out we were pregnant with Hayden. We weren't even trying! It's all in God's plan.
You are in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a brave woman for opening up about it. It will happen for you. From what I can tell, you would make an excellent mother -- and God will provide that opportunity for you!!
I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. My brother and sis-in-law have been struggling with the same thing, for the past four years. They are looking into adoption now (probably at least in part due to Sophie - they are in LOVE with her.) I know all too well how hard to wait day-after-day for your heart's desire, not knowing God's will for your family. Will pray for you. (Hugs.)
Found your blog through Kristy and my heart is breaking for you. Know that I will add you to my prayers...
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